Changes.

There have been a lot of changes going on my blog. I felt something pulling the trigger to put some public advertisements or so. But let me tell you something, I hate the position of the Google Adsense. They should let the bloggers pick a choice on where to put the ad. But whatever, I can't do anything about it.

There's this forms I've placed in. One is for the question and answer thing. And the other one is for the requests that I've been really waiting for all my life. I'm tired of using multiply and friendster as the only connection for those people who requests a lot. So I thought I needed a blog for that, and that's what I'm gonna make soon as someone requests anything.

I've also put the recent comments' widget since I got attracted to it when I was roaming around Haloscan. hahaha. I know, weird and insane. And I've updated my links. There's two new ones. I also changed the song. I heard that song once again and I got infatuated, AGAIN.

I'm also having trouble with the archiving. I wanted to have a daily archive but I just can seem to do it, so I just got the links and I type, type, type the codes which is so tiring. So far, that's all. And I'm planning to have a "What's new? corner". I've had a hard time finding a widget for that. Come what may.

So about my life, there's still no sign of illness in my body. :[ We think I'm kinukulam. I'm gonna have a consultation later with the albularyo. And my teachers suggested that I consult a Psychiatrist/Psychologist. I'm gonna go there tomorrow, I think. They're assuming that I'm just stressing out or whatsoever. I'm gonna go back to school next week, I guess. Or maybe as soon as I feel less irritated with this stupid aches. I have to take a bath now so I'll edit this later and reply to comments in friendster since they all piled up. I think there's a hundred or more comments still pending. WOAH, that's a lot of people.

WOW, I think I've got the first request, and it's a layout ;)
Lyann, dear, what's the design or so? Tag me or add me in Y!M. It's leeannemae_sheets. I know, it is cheesy. HAHA.

[EDITED]

Today, I changed the signature and I did a lot of modifications. I changes how the request form looked like, and I added a search bar. :|
Life is so boring. I'm thinking of two url's for the request and question thingy. CAN YOU HELP ME WITH IT? COMMENT.
And I'm also kinda bored to do a layout. CAN YOU MAKE ME ONE? COMMENT.
Life really is boring. And I'm not yet done with replying to those effin' comment. grr. Bye.

Confidential

These past days have been very hard days for me. My friends don't trust me anymore. And much worse things. I just don't know how to react.

On Tuesday, me and my mom will go to Manila again to prepare for the endoscopy and colonoscopy. What are those? Search for it in the internet, you have the tools. I really think that if I were the one to explain you that, you'll be disgusted in the procedure. I'm brutal when it comes to explaining, and even the most minute details, I'll reveal it to you.

That night, I'll have to eat light dinner and drink phosposoda and gatorade for bowel purposes. It's so that my colon will be clean.

Wednesday is the big day. At 10 am, my life will never be the same and it will be the moment of truth. I'm excited and scared at the same time. What if my illness is in the worst state? I don't know what will I do then. Maybe I'll just stop going to that school where my so called friends study. I can't let them see the scars that remained in my heart. Their harsh words affected me. I hope they didn't visit me last Friday, things just got worse.

Yes, last Friday, they went in our house. Including Dale, they interrogated me about my illness, and I answered that we don't know what it is yet. And yea, they don't believe me at all. I felt my intestines deteriorating back then. I felt really humiliated when they said that they don't believe me at all even if it was a joke. I had no time for jokes. I got really worried with myself. I didn't know what I did wrong. I didn't know why all these are happening to me.

Anyhow, I wanted to change my religion from Roman Catholic to Iglesia ni Cristo. I felt really enlightened when I first heard their words. I felt so much embraced by the Lord. I think I'll fit in more there than in my religion before. I don't know how to tell my family but I'll think of someway soon.

I nearly cried earlier when I read my classmate's comments. I needed someone to talk to but there's no one there to comfort me, to let me understand them. I hate what I'm feeling now.

What would you do if there is no one else to be with you in the loneliest times?

Everything seemed so hard for me. I got very emotional and I came up with these icons. :D

New layout.

Last week was a total piece of CRAP, as usual. It was filled with different emotions that lingers beneath me. I didn't know what to do so in conclusion, I got REALLY confused and stubborn at the same time.

Monday, Tuesday and Wednesday were the usual pains and aches centered day. And besides I can't really remember what I did those days except crumble and crouch on the bed or on the sofa. And of course I did linger on my computer and watch some of those not-so-boring stuffs on the television. So last week was mainly composed of Thursday, Friday, Saturday and Sunday.

Thursday, August 16,2007. It was supposed to be one of my ecstatic days on the month of August but it turned to be a mournful season.

Dieciséis, seize, sechzehn, sedici, zestien, dezesseis, seksten, SIXTEEN. All of these words point out to that special number/date that I have been waiting for all of my life. It is our 9th monthsary, Dale and I. I was thinking of him that day and I didn't knew why I couldn't get him out of my head. I was imagining things, things I've never encountered before, things that are sweeter than candy, but unreachable like stars. Then I checked out the calendar, I was very very shocked. It was August 16 and I forgot. It must be because I haven't seen Dale online those days. And gosh, I miss him so much. I think I'm dying or maybe I'm just over-exaggerating.

Well, being not with him at our most special day is simply the suck fest. And I felt like there's this great gap between us ever since I never saw him again. And I hope it's not getting worse. I don't want us to fall apart. Maybe we are already falling apart. These thoughts, they're killing me softly.

My online friends was wondering how could I survive those lonely nights without him. The truth is, I can't. My heart was slowly crushed into a hundred folds. And it will never be back together again, it's simply impossible. Enough of this wreck, I'll tell more important matters.

At that very moment, my mother remembered what the optometrist told us: I should go get glasses. NOOOOOOOOOO (in slow motion). What am I gonna do? Nothing, except plead and beg and die. I don't want to be a freak show. Haha. Well, I never was a freak show and never will. The glasses were okay. Not geeky and nerdy at all, just the right one. I'll show a picture soon as the camera gets fixed.

And that afternoon, I went to a kiddie party. T'was fun and very exciting. It was held on Mcdonald's and I was quite hoping that I was gonna see my friends and classmates but I found no luck at all. Anyways, I saw my classmate and her sister at the mall. I missed her and it was great that I saw her. Then I went home and continued those television sessions.

Friday was a blissful day, I get to watch fun movies. It's like there was me and the television alone. Movie trips are the best medicine when you feel alone. That's when I got addicted to John Heder. I mean I watched all of his movies and searched some facts about him through the internet then I watched the movies all over again and again. Isn't that addiction? I like his movies: Napoleon Dynamite, Blades of Glory and The Benchwarmers. They were the bomb. They were so hilarious that I forgot to eat. And that was a record. I couldn't stand a minute without eating. Yea, I'm that addicted to food too.


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Then after that great trip, we went to our family friends' house. My brother and sister will sleep over there for awhile since me and my mother will go to Manila again. I didn't want to leave that house at all because of those precious DVD's and VCD's. I wanted to have a movie trip again. So before we left, I finished one movie. I watched 300 since I didn't really enjoyed it at the first time I saw it. So yea, It was a bloody hell and I was pretty amazed by the Spartans' wise strategies. They were very faithful to their land unlike some people. Well anyways, I'll just skip the hospital thing. It makes me remember all the dreadful things that happened to me.

Today, I'm just feeling ever so sad. And hatred takes over me. I just loathe people who are so unfaithful. They stab you on the back and they pretend that they're your friends. I'll just pray that they find the direction they need in life.

Twisted

Today wasn't really a bad day. Today is a good day for telling stories and the like. I'll talk about the journey I've been through last week.

My mother and I went to Manila, specifically Taft, for a consultation in a hospital. We actually thought that we I will encounter an operation but it was nearly the opposite.

We first went to the pediatrician since I am just thirteen years old. The doctor asked me questions related to my complain and diagnosed my abdomen. She then told us that she'll refer me to a radiologist, to conduct an ultrasound; an ob-gynecologist, to see if I have any problems in my reproductive system; to a gastro-interologist, to see if i have any malfunctions in the organs located at my abdomen; and to a pathologist, to diagnose me using different examinations.

We first went to the radiologist. The nurse put some gel-like substance on my abdomen and had a thing with a roller-like stuff. Then I saw my kidney on the screen. It was quite unusual and weird looking since all the colors are just black, white and gray. I was amazed when the doctor said something like:

Do you have urinary tract infection?

I said that I had history of it. I was wondering how did he knew that. WOAH. haha. Well anyways, the doctor said there's nothing wrong with my kidneys and bladder. So we quickly rushed to the ob-gynecologist.

The doctor asked things again. And this was the shocking part, the doctor conducted a rectal examination on me. Do you know what that means? I was almost divirginized by the doctor. Pheww. Good thing it was only the rectal procedure.

After that, I went to the pathologist and had my blood test, urinalysis, and fecalysis. All was normal and the doctors can't figure out what is my illness.

Since the gastro-interologist was on leave, we'll have to go back there next week, Saturday. And I have to intake lots of medicine. That was my journey so far. I didn't elaborate much of the story. I'm kinda getting lazy. haha. So maybe I'll edit this one later. And I'll take a rest for now or maybe I'll eat first.

Strange as it seems.

My happy days are over and yet I'm still wondering if I'll ever be happy again or did I even got happy. Somehow, I know that I'll find the answers to my questions. From the start, I've know that I'm a disaster and these things that happens, happened and will happen to me only proves that I am a DISASTER. Yet I must be strong, I must face what I despise. I need to flow along, I have to sacrifice. That italicized sentences are lines from a poem I've made before. Even the poem tells me my destiny. Enough of that stuff, let me show you something from my private journal.

And just when I thought that I lost my everything, my hope brought me the brightest star you could ever imagine - YOU

I once believed in that quote. I made a fool of myself. You could never save me from all these problems. You couldn't even save me from myself. But I still think this fortune will come true someday. I hope so, that's all that I can do. Please, give me a sign that you're worth dying for. Please, give me a sign that I'm worth loving for.

First post un August.

This is my first post during the month of August. I'm so eager to write yet I'm having second thoughts for I learned that there are no more people who'd waste their time to read and be inspired with my literature. *Sighs. I feel more unappreciated. I feel apprehended by their actions. I feel like I deserve what I've been going through these past days. And I expect that you don't know what I have been through and what I am going through.
First, there is this big gap between me and my teacher. She knows who she is. I don't usually have problems with teachers, and I think I'm having bad impressions to the new ones. I know that I shouldn't bother to be close to any of them but we just can't resist. I never wanted to be a teacher's pet. And I never did. I just simply befriend them.
Second, I have this extremely painful stomach aches and traumatizing abdominal pains which we believe are symptoms of an ailment called APPENDICITIS. We still haven't gone to the doctor to have some check-ups but we will go to Manila to some hospital there hoping there would be a lot lesser price for my upcoming operation. That is if I really have appendicitis.
Third, I want to talk to Dale badly. I want to hug him tight. I miss him. I really really do. I can't be a martyr anymore. I have to release what I'm feeling inside. I can't hide them anymore.
That's pretty much it. I have tons of banners to do. I can't keep my peers waiting. I'll edit this post later.

Hiatus.

Hey everybody. I'm having hiatus in school. AHAH. It's actually 3:25 pm right now. I'm home because of sudden sickness. It started yesterday and my friends and teachers actually thinks that I'm faking it. Why would I risk my time just to hang around when I know that It'll bring more pressure to me? See? I'm not that stupid, you know. I'm thinking that they're thinking that I'm just tolerating my laziness, AGAIN. But actually, I'm not and that's the good part. I actually had a sensible reason right now. I don't want to hide from my responsibilities, I want to face them but since I'm not feeling well, I should take a break first. I need some time to relax, to feel serene. So anyways, let's skip the part where I'm being emotional. I don't want this post to be that mushy and stuffs. I have severe pain on my lower abdomen and caused me days to miss school. Yesterday, I just had to relax and I was supposed to go to school the next day, which is today. Today, when I just woke up, I felt this feeling, abdominal pains. urghh. They were killing me. Just as my siblings went to school, mom told me that we will go to the hospital to have some check-up on me.

I was number 9 of the patients. We were there at about 8:30 am then I had my physical check-up at about 9:00 am then my abdominal check-up at about 10:00 am. The physician asked me some questions and told me to undergo urinalysis and PREGNANCY TEST? fuck. I was so offended by that. My mom was supposed to tell the doctor that I shouldn't undergo that process because it's fucking improper. What does she think about me? Urghh. I know my responsibilities and being pregnant is pretty much not it.

I was interrupted by the Telephone Company. I told them I was sleeping so that they wouldn't scold me because of me being such an inattentive person alone in the house :]]

So anyways, back to the track. A pregnancy test is really not the appropriate way in making sure that I'm healthy. Tssss. What if I just have a Urinary Tract Infection or something like that. By the way, I have a history about that u.t.i. frack. And it's nothing to be happy about. I was confined in the hospital with the dextrose. I hate that thing along with the needles. And besides, it really is an insult to peeps like me.

Going to the menace, I think I'm gonna have a hard time explaining the reason why I was absent in school for two straight days. It's a record. I'm never absent for two whole days. Maybe half a day, but two? No way. That exceeds my laziness. HAHA. If there is a limitation. Of course there is!

It's already 8:54 pm and I'm kinda tired and sleepy. I have to be ready for the big day tomorrow and in just a week, the periodical tests will come. SCARY!

[edited at 9:29 pm]

I just wanna show you a banner I've made for the past days that I've been missing Dale that much.



It's just a quick banner. I've made it for a few hours. Usually, I make banners for days. AHAH. Anyways, I'm working on the banner of the group CONVENIENTLY TWISTED* and EL ISMAEL. Both are volunteered works. Some groups are contacting me to make them banners but I'd rather not be that popular than be hassled with all these works. :]
Bonsoir!

Destiny awaits...

Today is a really good day, but it started of with a frown.

Everybody seemed to notice that I always frown. I frown whenever they don't follow instructions. I frown whenever they're being all silly. I frown even when i see HIM. I frown everyday, and every stinkin' day of my life. I realized that I shouldn't give that look to the, for they don't deserve it. They deserve a much more appreciated glance.

So this day, at about 12 pm, I went home with a frown, as usual, only realizing my habit's a burden to all. I made a promise that I wouldn't frown for the silliest things anymore, instead, I would encourage myself to be a laugh-a-holic once more like I used to be back then. And yes, so far, so good [: I'm really proud of myself.

Today is also the last day of the Annual School Press Conference and I wasn't that excited to know the winners. As a staffer, I was afraid that they would find a much better writer than me. Since this year is only my second year in the school paper of my high school life, I felt hurt when I heard about the news that they will compare the new set of winners to the senior staffers and eventually, they will decide who'll be the new staffers, who'll stay and who'll be going away. I was so darn sad, and that's really the main reason why I frown a lot on these days.

After the awarding ceremony, we senior staffers remained in the alumni hall together with the school paper advisers Sir Oliva, Sir Dionson and Sir Cac. (We weren't that close to the new school paper adviser, Ma'am Tara.) Sir Oliva gave us a sermon. And he kept on mentioning my name including Corina's and Russyan's. I was wondering why he did that. Then he said something about destiny and karma.

Yes, I know. Destiny awaits me. Whatever is in for me, I'll take it. I'll let no opportunities to pass by without me grabbing it. Nor will I let chances to be taken away from me. I must be assertive in every answer I've got. I must be stronger in order to overtake the many things that I know will only be a hindrance to my success. I'll let no problems to discourage me in reaching my dreams. I believe I can fly. I believe in myself.

And yes, karma has two faces: the good one and the bad one. I may possess negative energies at some time, but I'm most certainly sure that I'm avoiding it as much as the impossible. And the good one, I'm practicing. I'm implementing Confucius' golden rule: Do unto others what you want to do unto you. The opposite is Christ's golden rule. I'm reviving all the positive energies that I ejected along the way to the hills of triumph. And after all, I mustn't be anxious nor obnoxious to be the number one because I know that God has other plans for me. He reserved a much better blessing for me. He knows what I want, but He'll give me the unexpected.

Oh, what do you know? That Godly seminar had an effect to my senses. I'm a much spiritual person right now. Ain't that great?

So, that's all I've got as of 6:42 pm. I feel rejuvenated. But who knows what I'll do next? Maybe I'll attend another Godly seminar and plan to be a nun. AHAH. Oh well, so much for that. Maybe I'll edit this post later this night [: Goodbye.

[edited at 7:58 pm]

See? I told you so. AHAH. So, going along with the topic, I'd like to list down the main reasons why I frown.

o5. I usually get irritated when somebody's being a jerk and all. What the hell will you feel if you get embarrassed in front of everybody? And what will you think if somebody taps you on the back real hard, as in REALLY HARD? What's the point of being an understanding friend if you'd only get abused by your so called peers and friends?

o4. If someone were to confront you to tell you all the bad things they don't like about you, what would you prefer - a private talk or a public one? They embarrass me everyday.

o3. Would you like to have plastic friends or maybe just a true friend? I have lots of those Tupperware.

o2. If you couldn't talk to the most special person you've ever loved, what would you feel? I mean, I see him everyday, but I never tried to talk to him like an ordinary person. I want us to have this special connection as somewhat just friends whenever we're in school campus 'cause I don't want to get those rumors spreading.

o1. If your most priced possessions get trashed, what would you feel about the person who did the deed? My mother accidentally or incidentally put away my poems as we were moving to another home. I felt so shocked when I found out about that. I felt my heart falling into pieces. Until now, I can't get over that incident. I don't know where to look for them. I don't know how will I continue my dreams without my inspiration. Of course, there are other inspirations but I can't just forget about my poems.

Now you all know how I feel. And another thing: I wanna write once more.

I'll just have to give my best shot at the Journalism thing and just get over with the Poetry issue. I'll be missing those days. I'll spend the rest of my life dreaming about the papers and the thoughts I've put unto them. I'll be continuing my life without veins raging in my body. I won't be waving goodbye as I won't be losing hope to find them once more. I'll just wait till destiny comes.

[edited once more at 8:16 pm]

I've been listening to the songs featured in my blog for a week now. And I've been thinking about what it signifies. Let me show you the lyrics first.


"Hey There Delilah"
By Plain White T's

Hey there Delilah
What's it like in New York City?
I'm a thousand miles away
But girl tonight you look so pretty
Yes you do
Times Square can't shine as bright as you
I swear it's true

Hey there Delilah
Don't you worry about the distance
I'm right there if you get lonely
Give this song another listen
Close your eyes
Listen to my voice it's my disguise
I'm by your side

Oh it's what you do to me
Oh it's what you do to me
Oh it's what you do to me
Oh it's what you do to me
What you do to me

Hey there Delilah
I know times are getting hard
But just believe me girl
Someday I'll pay the bills with this guitar
We'll have it good
We'll have the life we knew we would
My word is good

Hey there Delilah
I've got so much left to say
If every simple song I wrote to you
Would take your breath away
I'd write it all
Even more in love with me you'd fall
We'd have it all

Oh it's what you do to me
Oh it's what you do to me
Oh it's what you do to me
Oh it's what you do to me

A thousand miles seems pretty far
But they've got planes and trains and cars
I'd walk to you if I had no other way
Our friends would all make fun of us
and we'll just laugh along because we know
That none of them have felt this way
Delilah I can promise you
That by the time we get through
The world will never ever be the same
And you're to blame

Hey there Delilah
You be good and don't you miss me
Two more years and you'll be done with school
And I'll be making history like I do
You'll know it's all because of you
We can do whatever we want to
Hey there Delilah here's to you
This ones for you

Oh it's what you do to me
Oh it's what you do to me
Oh it's what you do to me
Oh it's what you do to me
What you do to me.


and


"Samson"
By Regina Spektor

You are my sweetest downfall
I loved you first, I loved you first
Beneath the sheets of paper lies my truth
I have to go, I have to go
Your hair was long when we first met

Samson went back to bed
Not much hair left on his head
He ate a slice of wonder bread and went right back to bed
And history books forgot about us and the bible didn't mention us
And the bible didn't mention us, not even once

You are my sweetest downfall
I loved you first, I loved you first
Beneath the stars came fallin' on our heads
But they're just old light, they're just old light
Your hair was long when we first met

Samson came to my bed
Told me that my hair was red
Told me I was beautiful and came into my bed
Oh I cut his hair myself one night
A pair of dull scissors in the yellow light
And he told me that I'd done alright
And kissed me 'til the mornin' light, the mornin' light
And he kissed me 'til the mornin' light

Samson went back to bed
Not much hair left on his head
Ate a slice of wonder bread and went right back to bed
Oh, we couldn't bring the columns down
Yeah we couldn't destroy a single one
And history books forgot about us
And the bible didn't mention us, not even once

You are my sweetest downfall
I loved you first



They have a connection somewhere. And that's what it keeps me awake. I'm still searching for the truth though. But I'll tell you, these songs are great and are really sweet though somewhat emotional. Give yourself a break and try to listen to them [:

So, that's plainly it. And I'm just ever so KILIG right now. Cyril told me his and Sara's love story. Weee. I miss the old times with Dale ;) I miss our kilig moments ;)) I miss him. I really do. I just don't know how will I continue life without him. It may seem that I don't care about him. It may seem that he loves me more than I love him, but I loved him first, I loved him first.

This week's the shit.

haaay. i'm so effin' fucked up.
tssss. grrrr.
It all started with the misunderstanding with Dale then the freakin' things that happen. I'll skip the Dale part :D

So, here it goes:

Ughh, Taglish na lang aa :]

Misunderstangdings come up in the most unexpected situations. Misunderstandings can pop out of anywhere and can involve unexpected people.

Us students of SSC II-1 and our subject teachers have this little thing in between or we can consider it as a real BIG thing.

We've always been obnoxious to tell our adviser that she's crossing the line. Ever since June 4, she had this attitude that makes us go crazy. Is she lazy
or just simply very annoying or what?

But after tomorrow, everything changed. We planned to tell her or send a request letter to the curriculum head to let her know what she's been doin'
wrong.

Hindi naman sa nagmamagaling kami, pero hindi talaga
namin tanggap na we deserve an adviser like her.

That's what we felt. We had open forums to plan the schemes. And then this day comes.

She (the adviser) came to our room at about 10:30 am when her original time is 10:00 am to 11:20 am. She said that she only does that for us to have time to clean up all the mess but then she caught the room in chaos. The trash can was overflowing, the chairs were all disarranged, the students were scattered along the corridors of the building. She was furious and angry.

Then she let all the people, who put their trash in the trash can when they know it's full, to stand and explain to defend their selves. No one was admitting their mistake.

Our adviser pointed me and told me to tell something about the class. (She always does that, that's why all my classmates think that I'm her favorite amongst all.)

I haven't got anything to say except our remarks about her. My classmates murmured things that i think meant to open up that topic. But I just can't find the courage to be really honest that time. So our president, which is supposed to be me, stood up along with another classmate and told everything that we've talking about since the first day of class.

Our adviser was I think really surprised that we felt like that. But she ain't mad. I mean, who wouldn't be mad at people who stab your back. Maybe she's just open-minded with a really really broad horizon. And thank God.

We told her all our feelings that were hidden all along. Even what we felt to other teachers, we unravelled. And then, everything was okay at that point.

And here comes the bad thing, Nearly our dismissal, was another teacher we despise.

Kawawa naman ang mga II-1, walang upuan. - the teacher

One of my classmates whispered to another person ICT. It's another curriculum where we've been compared in terms of broadcasting skills.

E di dun nalang tayo sa ICT mag-room! - classmate

Nangiinis ba kayo o nangiinsulto? - the teacher

Ma'am bakit? Naiinis pa ba kayo? - AKO

FUCK. Why did I say that? The devil whispered it to me >.<

She made me a very long report about the History of China which like have billions of dynasties. grrr. I'm still working on it.
>:[

And we even told that to our curriculum coordinator but he thinks its all our fault which is totally not! Why would she be that arrogant to us? Always scolding us and don't even know what the situation really is.

Tumutubo pa lang ang mga pakpak ninyo, nagpipilit na kayong lumipad - the teacher

ANU DAW?

Mayayabang kayo! - the teacher

WHAT THE HELL?

Bawasbawasan ninyo nga ang mga hangin sa ulo ninyo! - the teacher

HA? Mukha ba kaming mga lobo? :]]

Let's skip that part na, I'm starting to blow up >:[

Today was a nice day although I missed another opportunity to talk to him :[

It's the first day of the School Level Press Conference which is the event I've been waiting for since forever. But we can't join anymore 'cause we're already staffers of the school papers. We should give chances to others DAW. tsss. AHAHA. I'm so selfish :D

So anyways, we've got an allowance of only 20 pesos since it's just a school level press con. haha.

NAPAKAKURIPOT TALAGA!

Before, it was 100 pesos, now it's one fifth the original price. haha.

I'm still waiting for the next day for the results of the contest. I'm hoping Cyril to be in the next batch of officers. Cyril is one of my closest friends and I really hope that when he'll be one of the staffers, C***** will be kicked out of the association. AHAH, after all, it's really unfair. We've tried our best to be in
the school paper last year and thankfully, we three, Me, Sara (Cyril's girlfriend) and Enrique (bestfriend), are in. But C***** did nothing and we were all suprised that she's in. tsss. The other people who deserved that position we're really NADAYA. ahaa. But anyways, I'm still thankful to be in the school paper once more. Journalism is like my other bestfriend. Next to Poetry and Literature and the Pen and the Paper. and of course, THE INTERNET :]

homaygad!

This week is really really fun and exciting :D
But first, I want you all to know that I'm so sick
of dsl. grrrr. One week is enough, but two weeks?
fvck. I can't live without my drugs. :|
So as I was saying,

Monday was okay ;D
JULY 16, 2007
It's our 8th monthsary, yea (:
No plans at all, then I was shocked.
We went to MCDO. :]]

Nagpunta kami ni thea sa public market at sa Choa's tapos nagtext si Dale at Aniceto, punta din daw sila dun. Tapos, pagdating nila, iniwan ako ni Thea. HAHA.

ahaa. They ordered food, but I didn't eat anything :D

Tuesday was alright.

Wednesday was also okay.

Thursday was pretty good.
It was President Gloria Arroyo's inauguration.
We went to Cubi ;D
Riding on a jeepney, YAKAP TRIP
:D ahaa. uber kakahiya, kasi may teachers :]
pero it was worth while ;D

so far, that's all I can say.
I can't think of any inspiring message to share today.
I can feel the pressure building up.
All the works are drifting closer and closer
each day. I don't know how to balance my time
anymore. :|

that's all.
I'm having a hard time with all these homeworks :[

Friday the Thirteenth

Gosh. Today is Friday the Thirteenth and yet i'm so lucky.
Is the bad luck thing psychological or what?
ahaa. but before anymore chits, i wanna tell the whole story.

Monday - July 09, 2007

We just moved to another home.
I like the new place but I missed the internet.
I mean, NO INTERNET FOR A WEEK? wtf? grrrr.
It's just so unusual. Even my classmates thought I was joking.
ahaa. They call me the internet guru. lmao.
and there was a late blow-out for Rhana's
13th birthday at Greenwich. It was quite fun.
and yet intriguing. sheez.
:D We ate 3 square pizzas and drank 3 pitchers or soda.
:]] We were about 7 people, I think.
and there were really insecurity moments.

Tuesday - July 10, 2007

Nothing happened, really. just the usual routine.
Study, study and more studying.
But of course I have time to look at HIM.

Wednesday - July 11, 2007

Still, bored. And yes, nothing to do.
Except wait for the internet.

Thursday - July 12, 2007

We were supposed to have a meeting for our
investigatory projectslashresearch
BUT nobody came because everybody was
effin' busy about the coming Microscope RapslashJingle.
haha. And I admit, I was busy about that too so, it's nobody's fault :D

Friday - July 13, 2007
Today is the luckiest day ever :D
Almost (:
aweee.
We went to Greenwich again.
Charmaine treated us this time, actually,
she always treats us wherever we go, as long
as she is hungry :D
so, THANKS [;
and, I just realized this second that I
really like to put smileys everywhere just
to express my thoughts and all. ahaa.

so, back to the topic,

At the mall, we were about to go home after we
just ate a whole pizza square :D

Tantananan! Dahil bumili ka ng pizza square,
meron kang free na pitcher of coke or sprite or rootbeer, etc.
- Cheryl, the cashier lady

That's what the cashire lady told us, I think her name is
Cheryl? ahaa.
And then, when we finished eating. We went outside and it's
raining very very hard. And I don't know why we waited there
for, I think, hours.
Then, Iyaa and Dale came running. ahaa.
We went inside the mall again, to the food court.
Since there are so many people in there.
:D
They wanted us to talk or at least, they wanted me to talk to him.
Gosh. I was really pressured there. I was about to have an emotional
breakdown again but I thought that I had to be strong.

:]] Ambabaw ko - Me

ahaa. And yes, we talked but not that much.
I'm a really talkative person but not when I'm around him
or at least, he's around me. :D
I don't know why or how. That's what scares me :S
And, aweee. We went near a place that was used to be called
Cindy's Plaza. And by the second,

Inaakap niya ko. And it was under the rain :]]

I don't know how to react but i think I'm SMILING
right now. :]] SERIOUSLY :D

After that, I don't really care what happened next,
except for the fact that the internet came back (:
yeayy. and that's all. I wanna keep on smiling like this.
Makes me feel very jolly ;D

Grand Opening :D

Ughh, hi everybody. Today, July 08, 2007, is the grand opening of my new blog that took me months to finish. I will put here all my thoughts and opinions. And I'll make up another blog for my poems and another one for my photoshop works and another one for question and answers. :]]
ayieee. I'm so excited. I worked so hard for the codes in this layout.
>:[ It took me weeks to make up the CSS and days for the photoshop things and HTML.
I've searched almost everything in the internet for the easy codes. ahaa. And now, I'm quite a pro. :)

So, as you can see, this is the first post and it looks like there's nothing here. :]]
But there is really none, except for this one :P

So anyways, I have to go because it's already 5:43 pm. So byee. mmkai :D