Today was fantastic. My friends recognize me again but in a weird weird way.
It's fun feeling the belongingness I wanted to feel for the past two days.
But somehow, I can't feel secure again. I can't feel myself complete like before.
Maybe because I miss him so much. And though he's one room away, I won't/can't talk to him. I don't know what my problem is but this is serious. I hope he isn't losing hope in me. I hope he understands me. I hope one day he'll approach me because he knows that I'll never look back when he'd call my name.
----------------------- 6:26 AM -----------------------
BUSYNESS.
This weeks been really busy, although it's been just two days. HAHA, weird. I can still afford the time to blog but my eyes sore when I got to school. I haven't used my friendster for a very long time now, it's about four days. I think there'll be a hundred or two comments by not. Well, school's been fine and all but I really feel like I'm in a ghost mode or something. My friends (or not) aren't really approachable these past two days. I don't know how will they react if ever I talk to them, so I'll just keep my mouth shut.
Anyways, as you can see, there's been a TARGET CORNER on the sidebar, those will be my reminders or something. I'll be putting up an UPDATE CORNER soon as possible. And I hope I can finish all these work.
I still haven't got any grades for my FIRST GRADING. So I need to study, bye.
Anyways, as you can see, there's been a TARGET CORNER on the sidebar, those will be my reminders or something. I'll be putting up an UPDATE CORNER soon as possible. And I hope I can finish all these work.
I still haven't got any grades for my FIRST GRADING. So I need to study, bye.
----------------------- 4:37 AM -----------------------
Taunts.
OMG. I'm so excited to go to school tomorrow, well kinda. I really hope things would turn out right. Look in the bright side, oh yeah, there is no bright side.
It's not as bad as it looks like, or maybe not. I'm just excited and afraid at the moment. I don't know how will they react or how will I react. I want to change my study habits. I want to study but the problem is that I don't want to go to school. Things for me there really pressure me a lot.
I want many responsibilities. I know that I can handle them but sometimes I'd just get carried away and everything I've worked for slips away like soap. And I don't want to disappoint myself over and over again. I wanted to achieve something. I wanted to prove to someone that I have skills and I know I can use them properly.
Anyways, enough about the school frack, I really am happy about the new layout I've made for my INTERROGATION ROOM. For a look, click here. I've made that for only a day which really makes me proud. Usually, when I make layouts, it takes me two days or two.
I just got the news that I'm not the leader of our Filipino group anymore. Well, I really deserve it and even if I disappointed myself once again, and this time, I'm not even in school, I will accept the fact that I should try my best in all the activities in school. I don't know yet how will I ever get good grades for the first grading of this school year, but I'm sure that I'll do much better in the next grading.
For the first time, Mom doesn't care if my grades will be high or low :) At least she understands me now although I'm sure there are doubts in her mind about me being sick and all, but it's okay. It really is doubtful since there are no real evidence that I'm ill except for me feeling the pain. I hope this wouldn't be the last post I'll ever make for the meantime. I still want to blog even if I know that there are more people who thinks that my life isn't interesting than people who would waste their time reading my posts. That's it for now, wish me luck for tomorrow :)
It's not as bad as it looks like, or maybe not. I'm just excited and afraid at the moment. I don't know how will they react or how will I react. I want to change my study habits. I want to study but the problem is that I don't want to go to school. Things for me there really pressure me a lot.
I want many responsibilities. I know that I can handle them but sometimes I'd just get carried away and everything I've worked for slips away like soap. And I don't want to disappoint myself over and over again. I wanted to achieve something. I wanted to prove to someone that I have skills and I know I can use them properly.
Anyways, enough about the school frack, I really am happy about the new layout I've made for my INTERROGATION ROOM. For a look, click here. I've made that for only a day which really makes me proud. Usually, when I make layouts, it takes me two days or two.
I just got the news that I'm not the leader of our Filipino group anymore. Well, I really deserve it and even if I disappointed myself once again, and this time, I'm not even in school, I will accept the fact that I should try my best in all the activities in school. I don't know yet how will I ever get good grades for the first grading of this school year, but I'm sure that I'll do much better in the next grading.
For the first time, Mom doesn't care if my grades will be high or low :) At least she understands me now although I'm sure there are doubts in her mind about me being sick and all, but it's okay. It really is doubtful since there are no real evidence that I'm ill except for me feeling the pain. I hope this wouldn't be the last post I'll ever make for the meantime. I still want to blog even if I know that there are more people who thinks that my life isn't interesting than people who would waste their time reading my posts. That's it for now, wish me luck for tomorrow :)
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