LRT!

Today was fun, and tiring. Sooooo tiring. We went to the University of the Philippines - Diliman Campus to submit my application form. When we already got there, I was shocked. UP looks like that? Woah. I thought it was far from how Ateneo is. 'Twas the same, even better. We went outside the campus again, to pay for the testing permit. The line was too long at the Land Bank inside the up campus, so we went to find another branch. And, I used one of the copies of my 2x2 photo for some class. I needed 4 copies but I only had 3. So we needed to recopy it, and we did. Now, I have 423423423423423 copies.

I got my test permit. I'll be taking the UPCAT on August 2 at 6:30 on the morning. Gaaaah. This will give me a headache. After the whole UP tour thing, and the boy hunting!, we went to Ateneo, which means, MORE BOYS! I missed that school. I missed everything about it. We went to a seminar at Ateneo during my first year in high school. The ambiance seemed different. I don't know why, but it just does. So anyway, I've got my application form already. It costs 500 Php. I'm having second thoughts about what course I've filled up on the UPCAT form and if I really wanna study there. Ateneo! Why are you doing this to me?

FYI, Ateneo used to be my dream school. It used to be my dream stepping stone to success. But when I found out about the course list they offered, I was disappointed and I dedicated my next year to adoring UP. Ughh. Can't I just study at two places? Can I have more time to study? Can't I have two courses at a time?

I hate studying, really. But after some time, I realized that I want to devote my years in studying. I want to learn more, I want to fill up my knowledge about everything. I want to broaden my horizons. I want to learn everything, if possible.

So before I turn this entry into a help-me-find-myself-rant, can you help me choose between the two beautiful schools? I'm not even sure if I can pull the entrance exams off, but I'm sure I can survive this.

I'll be taking review classes starting on Sunday, btw. I just wanna come prepared. I used to think that I am confident enough, that I can do this by myself. But because all of this pressure on me, because all of the tiring days me and my mom have put on my future, I guess I lost some of the confidence. Or maybe I was just being stubborn and now I've come to face reality. I don't think that the review class is essential, but it is never better not to be ready, right? I don't think that my brain power isn't enough, I just wanna refresh all these brain cells. And some part of me, just a little, wants to show off to the students who'll be eating my dust during the simulation exams. Haha. I know, I'm just confident. Lol.

I was gonna enroll at the review center somewhere at Katipunan, near Ateneo and UP. But the review center in Molino is still available, so I'll be devoting my time there during Sundays. I was gonna prepare myself from the traffic and travel boredom. Too bad, I can't experience to travel by myself during these months. I guess, I'll just have to be ready next school year.